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面试

2010年12月7号,天很冷,-9度,冻得麻木, 从来都没有这么冷过。但是天很晴,树上挂满了霜。这样冰冷的天气已经持续两周了。

12月是各个大学招生面试的时候,因为天冷下雪结冰的缘故,很多学校停课,很多飞机,火车,都取消了。据说很多参加面试的学生都不能来。杉去剑桥面试两天,7号下午考试,8号正式面试(两轮)。  杉坐的火车晚来了半个小时,还好,在考试之前准时到了。考完后和她爸一起回到Bedford,冰天雪地的,天又黑,两个人坐coach晕的不行。8号我鼓足了勇气开车送他们去了剑桥,然后又开回Leicester上班。

下午第二轮面试后哭了,她说went very bad. 感觉很委屈,连早就计划好的面试后吃sushi也没胃口了。晚上9点去火车站接她,还很upset。至于面试内容一个字也不想提,想起来心痛,只是说面试的老师很mean,想pounch 他们的face, 三个星期的准备一点儿都没用。 其实大学的网站上已经写了,没必要准备,面试时的怪题是没有人能想到的。

看了student 网上去参加面试学生们写的帖子,很多感到awful !还有学生想写信complain, 如何被treat badly. 大概剑桥的老师们实在是 genius,与众不同吧.,把孩子们的自信心都打下去了。

无论结果怎样总算过去了,就当是一次生活经历吧。Well Done, Shan! 可以放松看动画片,没必要看News Night 了。我也要把买的无数条裙子return 了。 

高高兴兴准备过圣诞节!

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First Offer!

今天杉收到了她的第一个Offer!   happy for her. 紧张的心也可以放松一些啦。
 
自从交了大学的申请表后,就在焦急地等待中。她的很多同学和朋友大部分都陆陆续续地拿到了所申请大学的offer,有的拿了2个,3个还有一位同学所报的5所大学都给了offer。而杉报的几个大学都没有动静,虽然有的回信说了要到明年1月到3月才处理,但是还是感到不安。同学们拿到offer 或interview 的机会都要发到facebook上,杉刚开始的时候,每次看完了为他们感到高兴,但是也免不了有很大的压力, 郁闷地说要是都考不上怎么办。 我也变得很担心,想我和她爸的建议会不会造成很坏的结果。还好,杉过了一段时间后转换了思维方式,think positively. 又变得开心了,看电影,吃饭,跑几十英里外看Band演出,几乎忘了自己是要考大学的。
 
我其实还是放不下,经常偷偷地到student room 网上看看她报的几所大学是否有动静。
 
今天下午,办公室的同事们闲聊,猜年龄。 一看杉发来的message,  got an offer! 没写是哪个大学,等我再发回去问,没回音了。紧张+兴奋的我一个下午什么都没做。
 
下班后回到家,杉回来后两个人had a big hug! 她说她在学校发现有offer后,开心地hug 了每个见到的人,她这个所谓的好学生大概是最后一个才收到offer的吧。
 
这个offer 意味着如果她明年6月份的考试得AAAe , 明年9月份就可以上大学了, 我们也不用pay 2012年可能要长3倍的学费了,a big relieve for us too!
 
继续努力!
 
 
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论文 again

上个星期和导师meeting,已经三个多月没见他了,First draft 仍然还没有完成。自从上班后,只是把以前写的重新排了顺序。
 
实验室里的同学们依然如旧,抓紧时间在为课题努力,有几个不久要交论文了。看着曾经工作过的ARM板,即陌生又熟悉。那一时刻想着一定要努力写论文。
 
星期五中午下班后去了实验室,打印了最近两年的文献,星期六没看一眼, 去DMU办了个图书证,星期天在图书馆里坐了两个半小时,继续查找新的文献,一个周末一个字也没写。
 
文献带到公司,想忙里偷闲能看看,没空, 大脑被塞得满满的,看不进去。下班回家做饭,吃饭,饭后对着电脑,昏昏欲睡,只能看点gossip了, 再加上周末两地跑,还有要考大学的杉… 虽然知道拖延的每一天都是以金钱为代价的,可实在是有些力不从心。遗憾前三年多没努力。
 
give up 的想法有时很强烈,连失败的理由都总结好了,又有些不甘心…
 
 
星期五下午在Lab里见到AZ和她丈夫,还有漂亮的两个小女儿。她的丈夫去读Master了,每周两天上课,3天工作养家,还要每天接送孩子,为了学习4点起床做功课, 实在是佩服。
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Changing your reality (ZT)

I was reading about this doctor in Europe. He had patients who were very sick. They had been treated through traditional methods but had not gotten any better. So this doctor gave them a very unusual prescription. He had them say three or four times an hour, "I am getting better and better, every day, in every way." Over the next few months, he saw remarkable results. The same patients who had not improved with traditional medications, all of the sudden, began to get better and better. What happened? As they heard themselves saying over and over, "I’m getting better. I’m improving. My health is coming back," those words began to create a new image on the inside. Before long, they started seeing themselves strong, healthy and whole. We see this principle all throughout scripture that once you get a picture of something on the inside, then God can bring it to pass on the outside.

I know so many people who would go to a whole new level in life if they would just practice this principle. We all know people who are always tired and rundown. And what are they constantly saying? "I’m so tired. I just don’t have any energy." They’ve talked about it so long that it’s become a reality.

The more we talk about something the more we draw it into our lives. If you get up in the morning and just talk about how you feel, how you’re tired and how you’re not going to make it, you are digging your own hole with your words. Instead of talking about the problem, talk about the solution! That’s why the Scripture says, "Let the weak say, ‘I am strong.’" Notice it doesn’t say, "Let the weak talk about their weakness. Let the weak call five friends and discuss their weakness." "Let the weak complain about their weakness." No, it says in effect, "Let the weak say exactly the opposite of how they feel." In other words, don’t talk about the way you are, talk about the way you want to be. If you get up in the morning feeling tired and lethargic, instead of complaining, more than ever you need to declare, "I am strong in the Lord. I am full of energy. My strength is being renewed. This is going to be a great day."

When you declare what God says about you, not only will it change how you feel, it will change how you think, and it will change how you act. It will change your reality! You won’t go out with a weak, defeated, victim mentality. You’ll go out with a victor’s mentality, strong and well able to embrace the blessings God has in store for you!

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Space 搬家,郁闷

决定再换一次Theme, 然后download到自己的PC上,就和WindowLive Space再见了。据说可以搬到Wordpress,但是照片又搬不走,可恶的Microsoft。
 
在这里待久了,还有些舍不得呢。对Facebook Twitter等都不熟悉,不知道到哪里落脚好。
 
 
 
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Job is Job

 

 几个星期前,公司里年纪最长的(72岁)一位负责看机器的老人家来到办公室告诉大家一个坏消息,公司不再给他续合同,圣诞节后就不用来上班了。他讲话的时候眼睛红红的。据说他十几岁从学徒工做起,一直在这里工作,退休后被反聘。每次他从楼下上来都吹着口哨, 这个消息对他打击很大,感觉可能好像被自己家抛弃了似的。Al和他一起工作的时间长,关系好, 很体贴地去安慰他,中午休息的时候一起去Pub

 

一个星期后,领导们开会,除了最高CEOCOO外,每位领导的工资要减25% ,其中包括Al。他开会回来后静悄悄的,我都觉得不公平,他负责管理设计部门,几个设计工程师里,只有他大部分时间在车间里,指导负责装配的工人们。还有他Interview 过我,当时谈得很好,老人家很友善,也是快到退休年龄了。

 

休假回来后,情况发生了新的变化,因为领导们不同意减工资,在美国的公司的Owner 来了,不减了,但是要裁掉两个。星期一上班时几个中层领导在等消息,AL仍然没有很多话,象往常一样,来了后,看完Email ,又拿着杯子去楼下车间了。下午要到下班的时间,结果出来了-负责楼下两个车间的领导被裁,其实他们在这里也都工作十多年了。Al上来了,很明显早晨紧张的脸终于放松下来,He said he felt sorry for these two guys. 办公室的气氛也轻松了很多,大家问他晚上是不是要出去吃饭。他拿来个大袋子,说是准备装自己的东西走人的。他在公司已经工作25年了。

 

星期二早晨刚走进办公室,被告知server is down, 所有人都没法工作了

 

裁人的事情在以前公司遇见过。 记得那时刚刚完成一个项目,做项目的时候老板催得紧,大家也都很卖力气。总算按时完成了,然后有那么一天,老板把V叫了过去,给她一个月的Notice ,因为公司没有接到新项目。V很优秀。

 

经常有人会问工作是permanent 的吗?其实哪里有permanent. 老板就是老板,雇员就是雇员,Job is Job,没必要有太多的责任感。

 

现在也明白了为什么无论公司怎么忙,雇员们仍是该休假时就休假。Who cares –Someone

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